Day 1
Slacking seems to be working for me. I got a 102% on my midterm, and remember that pop quiz I told you about? Yeah I got 100% on that as well. Man, I rock! These last couple of days have been so much more relaxing and stress-free now that I'm not bothering to freak out over the huge load of reading I have to do. I realized that only super genious robots could accomplish it all. But so far, so good. I'll stop worrying about it now. Looks like I'm really not screwing myself over :)

Jake and I needed to go grocery shopping yesterday. Well, actually we've been needing to go grocery shopping for weeks, but we finally did yesterday. Jake's birthday is in less than two weeks, and I asked him what else he wanted for a gift (I already got him something awesome, but I didn't want to stop there. I'll tell you about the awesome gift later). He said that he didn't have enough money for groceries right now, so if I paid for it all myself (we usually split the cost 50/50) he would be really grateful and it would count as the other part of his gift. I agreed. Well the cost ended up being $210. At least I know that we are set for a while. 
I stocked up on A LOT of healthy food because I'm trying to eat better, and Jake wants to eat healthier too. When you start watching what you eat, it's a HUGE help if your boyfriend does to (and actually wants to).I'd like to tone up before swimsuit season, which is a lot sooner than I realized, and I've been finding a lot of inspiration and motivation through my new subscription of Health magazine. Drinking a lot more water and green tea, and a lot less soda and other sugary drinks (yes, even alcohol) is something that I am working on, and officially started today. More exercise too. That will be the big challenge. I was never a fan of exercise, but I'm sure if I see and feel results soon then I will be motivated to keep at it. Oh and I also decided to greatly reduce my caffeine intake. No more coffee, amps, rockstars, monsters, etc. for one week (I decided to start small with this one). If I feel better and have more energy, then I'll keep at it. 


It's day 1, and I already miss my caffeine. This better be worth it.

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My slacking has turned chronic
..... I have a problem.

I don't exactly know when it started. Maybe when I didn't ace my quizzes that I knew I should have because I read everything and studied my freaking ass off. Maybe when I realized that I found my post-graduation job. Or maybe when I realized that this is my last academic term EVER. I dunno.

I'm not doing nearly as much as I should be doing anymore. I've worked so hard the last 3 or 4 terms and successfully aced almost everything and got straight A's at the end of the term. This term started off just like that. I read everything and went above and beyond what an average college student does. Then this weekend I officially stopped caring, and I'm not sure why. I had 8 chapters to read and a group debate to compile, and while I usually get all of that done, I only cared to compile the debate. I didn't do any of the reading and I couldn't care less. This is so not me!! I have homework to do tonight (not even counting the homework I should catch up on), but I'm not going to do it and don't even feel stressed about it. I'm stressed that I'm not stressed! Does that make any sense? It sure as hell doesn't to me. What the hell! 

Yup. Senioritis. I have a nasty case of it. I'm so sick of school and want to finish without wasting my time doing all the required readings that drove me nuts. Maybe I just think that since I already found my job, all I need to do is just pass and graduate and not worry about my GPA anymore. Besides, apparently most employers care more about your credit score than your GPA nowadays.

So anyway, I had a pop quiz today about the readings that I didn't read. Figures. I sure deserved that. Of course I would get quizzed on the ONE time I didn't do the reading. Don't you just LOVE BSing pop quizzes? Ugh. I sure as hell don't. But on the bright side, since I already got quizzed on those readings, now I don't have to read them :) I still bombed the quiz though. Oh well.

I'll pass my classes. That's for damn sure. But don't expect A's this term. I won't, and I don't even care anymore. 

Goodbye, stressed out overachiever. Hello, average college senior :)
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So THIS is why I didn't get that internship last month!
Okay, so I'm like 98.76% sure that I just nailed my dream job before graduation. I really don't want to jinx myself, and I'm trying so hard to stay calm and not get my hopes up again, but yeah, I'm pretty sure I got it! I had my interview today, and my interviewer talked about the job while using "You will ____ ... you will get trained to ____ ... you will learn to ____ .... you will get paid ____ ..." You get the idea. Saying "will" instead of "would" is a huge difference. She loved that I'm very flexible with hours, and she wrote down which days I'm available before graduation (Fridays and weekends), and asked me what days I would need off in the next 90 days. She also let me observe the staff, and I met a lot of really nice people and a very adorable group of kids. I'd be surprised if I don't get hired.

You may be wondering what job I'm talking about. I decided not to write about it until now because I didn't want to get my hopes up before I became absolutely confident. I would be on the treatment team at Jasper Mountain Center. It's a living center and a school for children who aren't able to adequately function in their families. Many of them have been abused, neglected, abandoned, unadopted, have severe behavioral issues and are hostile or violent, etc. Jasper Mountain is basically these children's last chance. If they don't make it there, then they are sent off to institutions. Fortunately, Japser Mountain has a high success rate. Jasper Mountain lies on 90 acres and has llamas, horses, gymnasiums, greenhouses, a river, hiking trails, sand pits, basketball courts, and a lot of other cool stuff. It's a beautiful place and I fell in love with it the second I parked my car.
The kids live in what they call the Castle, and the call it that for a reason. It's huge, and it lies on the top of a steep hill next to the main office and the school. It has an AMAZING mountainous view that is to die for.


I will need 2 days of training before working there, and that is what I'm waiting for... a call for training, which I'm hoping is on a weekend or else I would have to miss school. This job is exactly what I want to be doing with my life. Helping people (especially kids) and making a positive difference in their lives is what I truly believe is the most rewarding occupation in the world. Back in high school I was determined to be rich and get a job with a tremondously high salary. But as I went through college and took classes involving children and familes, and not to mention countless many classes involving inequality and poor treatment of innocent human beings, I realized that helping people is what I'm meant to be doing. This is what will make me happy, and no amount of money in the world would give me as much satisfaction as making a difference in a child's life. Many of these kids have never been loved and cared for. Many of them have never felt secure. I want nothing more than to show these kids that they are cared for and worthy of love and respect. 
I've been so lost in trying to figure out what I'm going to do post-graduation, and worried sick that I wouldn't find anything. I've been torturing myself with this stress and confusion.


I finally found the answer, and it feels so meant to be.
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Remember when we were 5 years old, and our biggest worry was dropping the ice cream cone?
I'm back! Well, for now anyway. I actually don't have time for this, but I really don't want to start the Mt Everest that is my weekend's homework, so I'll just procrastinate instead.. and hate myself for it later.


Last week, I dyed my hair red. Well, not bright-red or fire-red or carrot-red or purple-red. More like brown-red? I dunno. But here's a pic of it.

 Yes, I was currently in motion when this was taken. Don't judge me.

It really depends on the lighting. Sometimes the hair looks dark brown, light brown, red brown, or bright red (in the sun). It's quite confusing actually. But if someone asks me what my hair color is, I guess brownish red explains it best. I just got bored with my hair and decided that it was time for a change. It makes perfect sense too, since I am at a point in my life when everything is changing for me. 

I'm ending a chapter in my life, and soon starting a new one.. a big one. I'm just a couple of months away from officially starting my life in the Real World (whoever claims that starting college is a transition into the real world is full of crap.. I used to claim that and quickly realized how wrong I was) -  Instead of  living off of my financial aid, I'll be starting an actual career and working for my money, while paying back the money that I have been using to pay my rent/bills/groceries/insurance/everything for the past four years. Instead of doing homework every night, I'll be relaxing cooking, cleaning, and bitching about how exhausted I am from my day's work (the level of bitching will greatly depend on the job I'll have, which is hopefully a job that I'll enjoy and can actually use my degree for, but you'll never know with our society's crappy current economic situation). My relationship with Jake has become increasingly more serious and committed (we've been talking a lot about future plans, wedding, kids, though he hasn't officially popped the question yet - he's currently saving for a ring - we're basically engaged, or "engaged to be engaged" as he puts it). In a matter of a few years I'll be engaged, married, buying a house, and picking out baby names. 


I'm officially becoming an adult, and it's scaring the hell out of me.
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New glasses
So I went to my eye doc for an exam and an upgraded prescription. I have an astigmatism in both eyes, which causes my vision to get worse each year. Instead of just ordering a new supply of contact lenses I decided to buy a new pair of specs as well (the ones I had before I've had since middle school, and I couldn't see anything with them). Jake demanded helped me pick out which ones to get, and he we decided on this pair of Liz Claibornes. The quality of this pic sucks but it's the best one I've got for now.


I also thought I should mention that I may be MIA for a while. This term is basically wanting me to ditch my life and work nonstop. If I find a slot of time, I'll update y'all, but I'm not making any promises.

So until next time,
Have a wondrous day!
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